I Need Thee…

“I know you said for me to wait/but I took my chances anyway/and then my life came crashing down/my world was spinning round and round/and there’s no one to blame but me/I’m feeling so much hurt and shame/and I’m in excruciating pain/cause I didn’t do right by you/I took for granted all you do/and now a shell is all that remains.”- I Need You Now by Trin-i-tee 5:7

I don’t know who told these ladies to enter into my mind and grasp hold onto my thoughts like this! Those lyrics speak so much about my story, what I feel and deal with lately. I’ve listened to the song many times before but for some reason, one day on my way to work that first verse just struck at my heart so hard! We fall short of Gods’ will and glory everyday. And there is no one to blame for our short comings but ourselves. We attempt to place blame on others or even “the devil” knowing that we were the ones who made those decisions, to go against what God has ordained for us. We follow our own understanding of things, and don’t consult God about decisions we need to make. So with our prideful, lustful, selfish hearts, we go after what we want and think is best for ourselves. And when things don’t go according to “our” plans, and mistakes are made, in the midst of our hurt and suffering of the consequences of our actions, we come crawling back to God to save us. Those lyrics, so true and pure to our human nature; we’ve all been there. We all go through it, sometimes repeatedly!

It’s not easy to admit when we are wrong, but I thank Angel and Chanelle for writing this song and forcing me to look deeper and be more honest with myself and with God. I mean, I simply just wanted to jam out to a great song, LOL; but the Holy spirit had other plans that day, I just suddenly began to really take in the lyrics and get perspective on things.  I realized that I was trying to avoid telling God what was really on my heart. I didn’t want to admit that I was the nucleus to all of my troubles lately. It was hard to say to God that I was wrong because I was afraid that there would come this “wrath” or “rejection” from God, but I was so wrong. I don’t know why my faith and unbelief at times fail me and cause  me to doubt God.

By the end of the song, I am not sadden by hearing my inner most concerns being played out to me, but rather I find hope, love and support in the Lord.  No matter how far I fall, God is always right there to pick me up.  He is a God of multiple chances, He is our Father who loves His children.  And like children when we get to “acting all grown” and mess up, He’s there to guide us back to where we belong. His lessons, no, aren’t learned easily, and yes, we will feel hurt and shame in knowing that we disappointed Him with some of our actions and/or thoughts,  but God loves us enough to see us through it all.  We all need God, I need Him on a constant basis, so be encouraged and don’t think that you’ve messed up to bad for God to love you again. He wants us to acknowlege our sins, our failures, He wants to know our hearts!  That way He can love, heal, and get us back in right standing.  It’s in our weakest moments that He is proved strong and nothing can separate us from His love and amazing grace.

Bible Study: 2 Chronicles-If My People…

2 Chronicles 7:14-”If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.” – This is such a simple and basic request God asks of us, yet it is the hardest task we as His children fail everyday to uphold. This scripture is also beautifully sung by Donald Lawrence and Company and as the group simply repeats this scripture I can’t help but to think of my lack of humbling myself and simply doing what God asks.  Is it really that hard? Or do we limit ourselves so much that it seems we can’t measure up to His standards? Are His standards really that high?! I have to admit that sometimes I feel like I’m missing the mark when it comes to this faith walk with Christ. I sometimes feel like there are to many things on the list that one must have complete in order to make it to heaven. And for me, I just wanna make it to heaven.

2 Chronicles 7:17-18 “As for you, if you walk before me faithfully as David your father did, and do all I command, and observe my decrees and laws,(18) I will establish your royal throne, as I covenanted with David your father when I said, ‘You shall never fail to have a successor to rule over Israel.” -Now I don’t want to take this scripture out of context, but rather, bring it to the now time period. Though here God was speaking to King Solomon and the people of Israel, I believe that we cane take this scripture and apply it to our lives and time today. If we walk faithfully before God the way David, or even better, Jesus did, and do all that God asks us to do, then He will establish our lives within the kingdom of the church and we shall never fail to be the righteousness of the church! We can be the example, the leaders, the kingdom of God can be reflected rightly through us if we seek God and uphold His laws and commands.

2 Chronicles 7:19-20 “But if you turn away and forsake the decrees and commands I have given you and go off to serve other gods and worship them,(20) then I will uproot Israel from my land, which I have given them, and will reject this temple I have consecrated for my Name. I will make it a byword and an object of ridicule among all peoples.”-Again though God is speaking directly to Solomon and the people of Israel, let’s bring this to our time and lives today. Here God gives a straight forward consequence of not following Him saying, If we decide not to follow His commands and choose to serve and worship other gods (people, money, ourselves, Satan, etc), then He will remove us from things/places/positions that He has given us or set us up in.  He will reject everything that we claim to be of Him from us. We can’t serve two masters. And not only will the presence of God be gone from us, but He will allow it to be known to others and we will become the talk of the town. You’ve heard folks say, “Oh, did you hear about this church?” or “I heard so and so did this…” or “Pastor such and such and his church…” We know how gossip gets around!  Don’t allow yourself to fall out of the will of God. We have to be the example of what it is that God can do in one’s life!

There are many folks who are turned away from the church because of negative experiences with congregations and individuals, who claim to be followers of Christ but do not uphold the commands of Christ. Sometimes we operate in ignorance, thinking that we are helping someone outside of the faith, but in actuality we are pushing them further away, because we think to highly of ourselves. So we have to remember to stay ever humble, always confessing and repenting of our sins, and stay obeying Gods commands and seeking His face. If we do this consistently, then we will shine more so than ever, and those outside of the faith will be more attracted to come to Christ for their own soul salvation.